Many great human, philosophers, social reformists, sages allowed to kill the defiled ego which vehemently leads us in the way of unsatisfactoriness. Same time, they advised just not kill our bundle of matters which is known by us as physical body. Whatever we call either suffering-stress or unsatisfactoriness will have never cease from our impure consciousness unless we are not killing our ego of ignorance. Often, we feel extreme suffering and happiness because of our ignorance which is the cause of creating an ego, full of selfishness. Ordinarily many of us think to destroy this physical body by any of killing weapons, poisons to release from this very worldly stressing state which is a mental affliction only. It creates social problem, an unanswerable question mark (?). We should remember that there is nothing with physical body, but look at inward function which is controlling by our mind. Thence, we should have to learn about what the mind is, and its actual functions ?
What can happen after committing Suicide to a man ? This answer of the question should be known before committing suicide by interested person, just don't jump over a hole which can be a volcano. A man commits suicide because of his/her unexplainable problem, controlling over the mental activity, with full of disgrace and hatred, emotion and unsatisfactoriness. She/he feels more loneliness in her/his life before committing suicide. It happened to me when I was a boy of fifteen. I experienced a problem in high school which I did not want to share with any of my nearest person, hiding in my mind only which later created the cause of pulmonary disease. I would felt more loneliness, decaying my body and mind in an extreme condition. I had suffered a lot. Finally, I had an intention to kill myself and release from mental and physical illness. Therefore, I decided to drink alcoholic poison, but I couldn't success it, because an unknowing fear worked inside my mind “what would happen after my death”. Thereafter, I pretended just like a poisoned one, then, many people came to visit me supplying anti-poisonous medicine. I felt so sorry and sad what I have done on that day. After that event I realized that only just my pretension many people were so unhappy, nearest-beloved people were crying, what would happen if I die in this way. In that certain moment before taking decision to commit suicide my mind was in darkness. My all bodily consciousnesses were tended into the bad determining objects. I couldn't be happy for a subtle moment even. This thing happens to every personal before committing suicide, any of good consciousness never arise at that moment, so after death their unwary consciousness reborn in awful suffering state where they suffer a lot for thousands of years. So, my advise try not to commit bodily suicide. This is a violation, serious social problem. We should aware of this social problem, marking its roots cause in behind.
How to kill one's own ego and release it from stressing condition? Listen, philosophically it was examined that due to “Five re-linking aggregates” and “Six-senses” we desire external happiness which leads nothing but unsatisfactoriness/suffering. Binding “five aggregates” origin an ego the strong desire of selfishness. This ego can be destroyed only by knowing its (mind) nature. And when it destroys this is called actual suicide without harming any part of physical body. Instead of harming, it gives enormous confidence and happiness inwardly. At least one to two hours in a day try to observe about your mind activities, try to put your concentration and awareness in your mind. You will find something new always with your mind. The mind nature is to wander around restlessly. Therefore, mind should be caught by mind. If you can do it in practice, you will find unnecessary decision of committing bodily suicide.
Finally, if you can commit egoistic suicide then you will totally be freed from all kind of awful stressing feelings and desires. Then, you will find your human nature. Just don't kill your physical body, you should remember impure-defiled consciousness still remain with you which is the roots problem that you are trying to solve, which can be solved only by wisdom mind.
